Monday, May 1, 2017

Charlie Puth- Attention



You just want attention
You don't want my heart

You kept pretending you didn't have a girlfriend and saying I love you to me.
I'm not sure what you're doing.
Maybe you just want my attention because I don't give you my heart.
However, your words indeed caught my eyes.
I fail to ignore all the feelings.
I fail to get over you.
I fail to forget what you said.
I hate you for that.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

生病的你

明明是八年前的舊傷,卻在這兩年惡化。

與那些接連而來的挫折一起爆發。家人與你我的爭執,隨著這次病痛發作而嘎然而止。

所幸的是,目前看來是開刀解決了,可是還是會擔心你恢復不順利。現在也只能探病、打電話、傳訊息來陪伴你了。

H先生3

All the nonsense happened last friday night.

1.

"I miss you."

"I don't believe it. You're lying. You only miss your boyfriend. "

"Why? Why not believe me? I feel a little sad. "

"No, you don't miss me at all. You're lying. "

"Well, I miss you as a friend. Hahahaha..."

"What's so funny? "

"You got a girlfriend, right? "

"Well... let not talk about others tonight. "

"OK, fine. "

---

2.

"Why don't you get married?"

"There are some problems we need to solve right now. Maybe two years later. How about you? Why don't you get married? "

"I want to, but there's a pretty Taiwanese girl, who is my friend, didn't come to find me, so I guess I have to find an Indonesian girlfriend. "

"Hahaha... I'm so sorry. "

"You don't have to say sorry. That's alright. You're still my friend. "

"You're handsome. I think it should be easy for you to find a girlfriend and get married."

"I'm too old. Most of my friends got married at 24. "

"Really? Most of Taiwanese get married after 30 now. It's pretty common. "

"But how about having a child?"

"Maybe at 32 or 34. "

---

後來我問男友H先生到底是什麼意思,他說大概是半玩半認真。總之就把這段對話紀錄下來吧。

回頭看對話,覺得我有點渣...但是明明只是談業務,卻總是會談到感情上面。 = =

Saturday, March 11, 2017

Charlie Puth - We Don't Talk Anymore (feat. Selena Gomez) [Official Video]



I miss you, and I want to talk to you. But when I logged in the messenger, I just browsed through the conversation we had before and did nothing at the end.

Yes, we don't talk anymore. I just can't move on.

Friday, March 3, 2017

微不足道

最近持續做著微不足道的計畫。持續地請託他人,也沒多少人放心上,內心大概也覺得我不需要太認真。許多時刻都是敷衍了事,漸漸淡忘我的存在。

有時候還真的會質疑自己是否該放棄?但又覺得若現在放棄了,人生將失去許多樂趣。

也與身邊的同事漸漸疏遠...再度卡在不上不下的人際關係裡面。

可是,為何如此微不足道,還可以每天都過得如此疲憊?

好累。

Monday, February 27, 2017

擔心你

前陣子才跟家人吵著感情的事,現在卻看到你生病了。

好難過...好希望你趕快好起來。

我們說好了那麼多的事,我們說好要一起達成的!

嗚嗚...

V先生

V先生跟H先生是同事,但卻是一位已婚的男子。去年我拒絕了他的情感後,之後往來也少了。一方面是因為他說他很忙,一方面我也不想讓他繼續認為他有機會。

今日放假,想著來排下個月的行程,想說段考也快到了,也怕國外的視訊專案無法如期完成。所以,我傳了訊息,問V先生關於專案的細項部分,是否能提早確認,好讓我排時程下去。沒想到,對方竟然打了電話來!好吧,一開始確實是在確認細節,但後來開始一直逼我開視訊,我拒絕了很多次。視訊不成,接著開始問私事起來了。接著,問我跟男朋友的近況。我說他今天在醫院,他很驚訝我沒去,又繼續問我為何不趕快結婚。「關你屁事。」我心裡吶喊。我回他實話,大概就是還有一些問題需要解決。

他開始說他最近買了台新車,又買了新房子,又說他跟他老婆快離婚了。「So? 你該不會是認為你有機會吧?」我心裡想著,也默默地聽他講他跟他老婆的事情。他接著問台灣的女生是否都有婚前性行為,還問我對有婚前性行為的看法。

.............

上次H先生也問了同樣的問題。印尼男生的處女情節真的很嚴重,卻又喜歡搭訕女生。到底....

我開始擔心接下來又要被騷擾了。

.... = =